Call of the Goddess

I remember when the Goddess first called me to Ibiza.  She gave me a strong suggestion that I needed to change all of my plans and arrive here as something big was coming.  Something I had been praying for.  Although it seemed crazy at the time as I had a new mortgage, I literally quit my TV job, rented my apartment and started the ball rolling on what would be the greatest shift (and breakthrough) of my life… and how I come to be walking the path I walk today.  It was particularly sweet as she led me to my beloved husband who was also guided to this magnetic island having received his own transmission that he was needed here pronto.

In her many forms, the Goddess gives me the strength to bravely walk the path of my destiny (whatever that may be).  She is Source, Infinite Light, she is is Mother Father God / Goddess and she shows up in different forms when I needed support or a gentle reminder of the magic of this world.  She walks me through the dark times and dances with me in celebrate and joy.  Sometimes she is bold, vibrant, wild and totally in my face, shaking me to get my attention or she can be subtle, a simple suggestion and reminder that I am part of something much bigger than myself

Even though I sometimes block her communication I know she is always here.  These feelings of disconnection, of feeling exceptionally human and stuck in a dimension that feels heavy and challenging still happen to me.  The deeper I allow myself to go into the feeling of separation the more I find myself in a funk of feeling blocked.  I feel tense and frustrated and like I have blinkers on from seeing the bigger picture and the magic that is inside and all around me.  Unable to see the river of flow that is beckoning me to let go and dive in as I am too caught up in my stuff.  

I feel the sensations of not feeling good enough, and feel tired, broken and overwhelmed at the mammoth task we have on this planet right now.... looking around and feeling like everyone else is flying while I flounder for a while, wallowing in my shadow.  When I navigate this terrain of the underworld I feel it but I don't attach to it.  I am grateful to journey with eagle medicine and am reminded minute to minute to see the bigger picture which may not remove the need to be in the dark times but it does provide some perspective.

But then I breathe and plug myself deeply into the earth... the greta Mother Goddess Gaia.  I get quiet and open the channel of allowing.  And it is from here I call to her in my prayers.  Sometimes these are actual prayers for assistance, sometimes it is in my movement practice and, as I type, I am reminded that my connection with her is omnipresent (even though my human-self sometimes forgets this) and the line of communication is always open so there is almost no need to call as she is already here.... I am her and she is me.  

I must add that although mother hood is often too full for many of my usual alignment rituals I have to say that breastfeeding and singing my baby to sleep are sacred gifts as it is in these moments that I can step out of myself and feel the current of the Divine move through me.    

And she shows herself in any ways.

in visions ~ in whispers and tones ~ in synchronicities ~ in the animals that show up in my field ~ the things that catch my eye ~ the cards I pull from my deck ~ the feeling in my body. 

I experience her because I invite her in.  I allow her to move through me.  I embody her.  This is my path in this life... to remember this process and shine the light for others. 

I used to wonder if I was making it up and my imagination was running wild but she has assured me it is time to put those thoughts aside.  Even when I go on psychedelic astral adventures and it seems too incredulous to be real I ask myself how I am feeling and the answer is always expanded... filled with pure love, joy and light.  And it is the frequencies that show me the truth.    

If this is resonating with you please do not worry about your wild imagination as it really is your greatest guide in accessing the multiverse.  Take the red pill, hop on your magic carpet and enjoy the journey I say.  

If you feel to work with specific Goddess energies there are so many lineages and frequencies to access depending on your needs.  In my experience whoever I feel to call upon or place my awareness on will appear... right now that is Mary Magdalene, Inanna and Isis...and now I am back in Ibiza I am asking for the Goddess Tanit to come through.  When you dive deep into to the mystery streams and the different codes you will feel the similarities in the energies these goddesses bring forth.  These goddess are all manifestations of Shakti and they are here for us to embody in the here and the now.

She asked me to share this with you tonight... from the dark bedroom where my baby is quietly sleeping.  So if you are reading this right now it is for YOU.